Just plain Crazy

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 15:53:14 GMT

I've found a four leaved Clover! :D

x x

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 23:56:26 GMT

I have a friend!!! He's a rat and he's called Barney :D He's cool! Pictured to follow soon.

x x x

Tidy room...

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 17:38:14 GMT

TIDY ROOM, TIDY ROOM, TIDY ROOM, TIDY ROOM!!!!!!! YAY!!
I tidy my room today as you may be able to guess and it looks ace :D It was starting to depress me but now its back to how it should be, Lovely!!! Woo!!!
Now for essay research while I wait for Ian to get here.
x x x

For the Greevsy :D

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 12:45:35 GMT

Leave Your Name And...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal. You MUST. It is written

JETLAG...

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 12:46:48 GMT

I didn't realise it was possible to be as happy as I am today!!
I also didn't realise that Jetlag is contagious!! Well..It's not really but it feels like I'm jetlagged since I was woken up at four in the morning by someone who was convinced it was time to be awake!
Ah well, all is good!! In fact all is absolutely amazing :D:D
x x x x

Fri, 10 Mar 2006 12:34:28 GMT

Lots to do today!! :D Fun fun fun!!
Very Excited! Gonna have the best weekend ever starting tonight.
First Xuds party tonight, always fun :D
Then tomorrow Ian gets back :D:D YAY!! He'll be staying tomorrow then on sunday we're going Rat shopping :D
It's gonna be ace!
x x x

YAY!!!

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 16:47:52 GMT

YAY!!!!!!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D

Sun, 05 Mar 2006 01:13:53 GMT

I bought a pirate ship :D YAY! x

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 13:12:39 GMT

Today starts three weeks of rubbishness!! Ian is away to Australia now :( But I did get a random text from him in singapore this morning!! Yay! Ah well as he said just three weeks then he'll be back and I get a boomerang :D YAY!!

Sat, 18 Feb 2006 12:44:04 GMT

Think its about time for an update..

Where to start, suppose uni is as good a place as any. Uni is good, not as good as it could be but its not going too badly. I didn't get the grades I would have liked last semester for some of my modules but I passed and for some things I got better than expected so its all good :D My lecturer who usually tells me in my feedbacks that I'm rubbish and he doesn't want me to come back next year actually told me he wants me to stay for final year and thinks I should be getting Bs. Hes pleased that I'm working hard and progressing too so yeah uni is good!!
Works alright as well, not really been working a lot because of various birthdays and visits home causing me to take quite a lot of time off. Getting back into normal working hours now so thats good, money is always nice :D Means I can buy things! Like DVDs, been buying far too many DVDs again. The other day I bought some amazing films though, like Bill and Teds excellent andventure, Naked Gun and Cool Runnings :D Awesome films!! So yeah, working all weekend kinda sucks but it will give me something to do I suppose.
Generally everything is good at the moment, uni is good, work is good, only thing that sucks a little is the boyfriend going to Australia for three weeks but its not that long realy and he's gonna bring me a Boomerang so I'll have fun things to play with when he gets back :D Apart from him going away :( things with Ian are good too, he's lovely and makes me very happy!! I find myself having silly paranoid thoughts still but he always seems to show me I'm being stupid without even knowing I'm thinking anything which I suppose means I don't need to worry about anything. I guess that doesn't make any sense to anyone but nevermind. But yeah, he's great and I'm happy so its all good :D
I suppose thats about it really, now I'd better go have a shower and clean the kitchen, what fun that will be!!
Cheerio x x x x

Tue, 14 Feb 2006 00:02:46 GMT

Happy Valentines day everybody :D x (feel free to hate me those of you who hate valentines day!)

Yay!

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 01:59:53 GMT

Couldn't be happier right now...
Had a nice weekend at home.
Spent the night in with the boyfriend (and the greek) which was lovely.
Back to uni on Tuesday which I can't wait for (getting a little bored)
and I got the Friends DVD boxset for my Birthday :D
All is good!

x x

Thu, 02 Feb 2006 13:06:53 GMT

Does anybody have pictures from my birthday?? I don't have any :(
x x

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 18:15:24 GMT

Happy Birthday Dawny-Dawn!!!!!!!!!

x x x x x x x

Mini update....

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 02:40:17 GMT

Had an amazing birthday!! :D Thankyou to everyone that came out, it was ace! Got very drunk but managed to stay standing all night which I'm very proud of and fun was had by all I believe :D
Spent the last couple of days being really fucking lazy and loving it, I'm so relaxed!!
So all in all everythings good and its about fucking time too! :D

Birthday plans....

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 17:11:01 GMT

Quick reminder, Tomorrow Uluru 8pm then onto the Mish for my Birthday Celebrations, All welcome :D
x x x x x x x x x

DEBBIES 21st!!!!

Sat, 14 Jan 2006 13:56:42 GMT

So next sunday I will be turning 21 :D
Going out Saturday night for it and everyone is invited.
The plans are Uluru from 8 untill about 11ish, got the downstairs booked. Then onto the Mish.
All are invited, so come along and bring everyone :D
x x x x x

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 12:06:21 GMT

So..Now starts the essay writing :( Fun, fun, fun!!

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 01:53:39 GMT

I'm very happy right now :D x

DVDS....

Wed, 11 Jan 2006 16:06:09 GMT

Whoops!!!...While walking home from uni, Sara and I walked past Blockbuster which just so happened to be selling 5 DVDs for £25. Well I just had to go inside and have a look. So 10 DVDs later I left the shop with my bank account 50 quid lighter! WHOOPS!! I just couldn't help myself, its like an addiction. In the last week I have spent £86 and bought 15 DVDs, EEK!!..Good job I get paid on friday :D
Today has been a good day!!! I got to use my new camera, I bought DVDs, Ian is coming over later :D Apart from having essays to write all is good :D YAY ME!!
x x x

Sun, 08 Jan 2006 13:10:50 GMT

gah!....lsdjkgh;org!..uh huh that about sums it up!....Confused??..me too!

Christmas...

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 20:27:36 GMT

Merry Christmas everyone :D
love you all (but not as much as I love stuffing :D, YUM!)

x x x x x x x x x

My Year.....

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 20:58:10 GMT

Well as I'm sat in the living room with my dads laptop and nothing to do but watch Eastenders I suppose its about time I did my update of the year so here it is:

2005
Debadora's Summary Of The year 2005 :D

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
I turned Brunette :)

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Didn't make any

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Mary from the Hut did think thats about it

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Nope

5. What countries did you visit?
I went to Florence in Italy with Grant and Sara which was amazing :D Thanks guys!! and I went to Amsterdam with Uni which was also amazing!!!!

6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
Only one thing but its not something I'm ever going to get

7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
12th June, the day I thought I'd got everything I'd always wanted.
13th June, the day my world fell apart.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
passing another uni year, making a good start to the next year, not completely falling apart without him.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Being stupid enough to get sucked in.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yep, tonsillitus us per usual and a really bad asthma attack.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Lots and lots of DVDs, oh how I love my DVDs.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
All my friends as always, they are amazing.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
One person who hurt me badly.

14. Where did most of your money go?
food, DVDs, uni projects, drink and weed.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Holidays, uni, a trip to a crappy town with an amazing person in it or so I thought.

16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
Blink 182 - Dammit Elliott Smith - Somebody that I used to know

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Happier I think
ii. thinner or fatter? A little thinner but that will soon change for the better
iii. richer or poorer? about the same really

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
saving money, sticking to my diet

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
crying

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Same as every year family, turkey blah blah only this year my grand parents are here.

22. Did you fall in love in 2005?
I'm still very much in love with someone I've been in love with for years and I fell in love with him over and over again many times thought out the year.

23. How many one-night stands?
I don't feel at liberty to divulge that information.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
Friends of course,and Lost aswell :D

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes but I love him too.

26. What was the best book you read?
Peter Pan

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I don't know

28. What did you want and get?
only one thing but I gave up on that in June

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Finding Neverland and Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
20, went to Glasgow with lots of my best friends to see The Front play, thats all I remember really, got far far far too drunk. I remember the begining and the very end.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
The ability to not care.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
Generally the same as usual Baggies and clevage but this year instead of black and pink I did branch out into Black and other colours like black and blue and black and red, lol.

34. What kept you sane?
My friends and keeping my mind on important things like uni and work.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
The one I will always want, Brandon Boyd

36. What political issue stirred you the most?
The War in Iraq but not really because I care about the war just because my Dad went and will be going again as did many people I know and people close to people I know, its shit!

37. Who did you miss?
Smoo as I always do, and Fieval, the real Fieval not the dickhead one.

38. Who was the best new person you met?
Cooper, Dans Mate :D and many other people I met this year.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004:
Sometimes its worth putting in the effort but sometimes you need to know when its time to give up!

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
I know you don’t think you did me wrong,
And I can’t stay this mad for long,
Keeping a hold of what you just let go
You’re just somebody that I used to know.

Well thats my year, think it was better than last year.
I'm off to eat Cheese on toast now
Cheerio
x x x x x x

Bye bye Forres Blues.....

Wed, 21 Dec 2005 10:58:41 GMT

It appears the Forres blues are leaving me today, I'm feeling cheerier :D
I will also be coming back to Edinburgh on Thursday for the Skindred gig so that might have something to do with why I'm a bit happier today.
I dunno, all I know is I should be happy, I was happy when I was sat on the bus coming home, I was sat thinking 'everything is the way I want it to be right now' and it is so I shouldn't let Forres and things from the past get me down. Things are good at the moment, and its Christmas, my favourite time of the year so I'm gonna be happy and enjoy my life while I'm young enough to enjoy it :D
x x x x x x

home

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 14:09:50 GMT

Well I'm at home again and I'm sat in my house alone crying. Its the same everytime I say goodbye to him but this time its different.
I spent the morning with my bestfriend, a guy I love more than anyone in the world and I just had to say goodbye to him, god knows how long for.
But its different this time, being with him today made me sad, sad in a way I didn't expect.
I love him very much and 2 years ago I made the decision to let him go because I wanted him to be happy and I knew that the only way he could be happy was if I let him go.
Now..He is happy and I'm happy for him, I really am yet it tears me apart and I don't know what to do about it.
I was always sad to say goodbye to him before but I always knew he'd be there waiting for me when I came back but now he's not. He'll always be there for me, I'm sure of that, if I need him, if I truely need him he will be there for me, but he's not mine anymore, not that he ever was but he's got someone else now, he doesn't need me and it kills me to say this. I did what was best for him and he's happy now and that means the world to me all I want is for him to be happy but I love him so much and I think I made the biggest mistake for me, I did what was best for him but I see now that its not what was best for me. I wouldn't change anything but I wish he still needed me like I need him.
I love him, I've always loved him but now its too late to tell him.
All I can do now is say Goodbye.